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Friday, May 18th, 2012
11:24 am	I'M EMPLOYED! I GOT THE JOB! I GOT THE JOB! I GOT THAT LOVELY JOB! HALLELUJA!  THE BUD SPENCER KIND! FUCK THIS IS MORE AWESOME THAN I CAN CONTAIN! YIPPIEH YAY YEAH MOTHERFUCKER! WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO! THANK YOU ALL FOR KEEPING YOUR FINGERS CROSSED! (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 16th, 2012
10:34 pm	Trembling Soooo today morning I had my job interview. It was my first _real_ job interview with people who didn't already knew me or wanted me for a job anyway. So I have no idea how it went. I think it went okay - good, except if the other candidate has language skills I miss. I sooooooo want this job! It's everything I ever wanted AND the payment is okay (for an entry-level economy job). But due to the holiday tomorrow I will only get to know Friday. However the choice was made today and I feel very anxious....and a bit bad. I hope it's only nervousness and no bad omen. Current Mood: thoughtful (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 7th, 2012
11:05 pm	Support Planned Parenthood Originally posted by twilightsm at Support Planned Parenthood Originally posted by mimda at Support Planned Parenthood Originally posted by lightsabove at This Is A Pro-Choice/Pro-Woman Zone. Originally posted by hellaine at This Is A Pro-Choice/Pro-Woman Zone. Originally posted by xlickety_splitx at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood Originally posted by theljstaff at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood Join us in standing up for reproductive health and education. Planned Parenthood, the organization that delivers reproductive health care, sex education and information to millions of people worldwide, has come under fire in the U.S. lately, with many politicians on both state and federal level seeking to end funding (and in a few cases succeeding). During the month of May, you can send a specially designed Planned Parenthood vgift to your friends to help support this cause. (And if you need someone to send it to, frank is always happy to receive gifts!) There are three variations ($1, $5 and $10) for you to choose from, but they'd all look good on your profile when your friends know that you stand by something so important.                      Thank you all for your help in our support for Planned Parenthood. This promotion ends June 1, 2012; LiveJournal is not affiliated with Parent Parenthood. For more information about Planned Parenthood, please visit: http://www.plannedparenthood.org/ -The LiveJournal Team (If you'd like to help spread the word that we're raising funds for Planned Parenthood, you can crosspost this entry in your own journal or community by using the repost button below!) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 25th, 2012
5:48 pm	Bedroom-meme Hi violet_eyes :D 1.What's on your door? a bunch of old jackets and micro-fleece sweaters that would take up too much place elsewhere. 2.What's under your bed? LOTS of dust and their offspring, probably 2-5 spiders with hopefully no offspring and some socks. Yes the underside of my bed is hard to reach. 3.What's interesting in your bedside table? My dad built it, it's a large square table and fillable with both sides. On it is a an African bowl with green-blue mosaic on the inside where I keep meds and valuables. The table is mostly full of notes and books. There currently 8~ books that I started reading but haven't ended yet. Among them "The Sign of the Qin" (Chinese-themed YA novel), Raphael (horribly bad homo-erotic literature I only still read sometimes to see how it ends), Ovids Metamorphoses, an old lexicon of World Religions (as in: all religions they knew about, even small cults. I love it, although it is outdated) and the beginning of the Tristar-Triology (homo-erotic literature) which I will soon end if I ever manage to find the plot again among those chapter-long porn scenes. 4.Do you have something(s) under your pillow? More pillows. Lots of them. 5.Do you have something(s) interesting on your walls? I rarely see my walls. One is covered by the <strike>armory</strike> armoire, the others by my shelves and a writing desk full of cosmetics. 6.Do you have a tv/computer in your room? Yes I got a TV that I rarely use nowadays. I am too tired to watch in the evening and in the mornings I used to watch MTV, but since it's pay-tv now I can only opt for breakfast tv or some stupid fake-judge. 7.Do you have shelves? What's on them? Shelves cover basically all walls of my room. The books- and - media shelf contains a small tv for gaming (N64, I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED ZELDA OoT!!!!) and P2, the dvds and games as well as books. Among my favorites old volumes of Tarzan and the Junglebooks. It used to store my Anne Rice collection but I got rid of most of the horrible ones.   The bedside wall is covered with my comic- and - manga shelf which is pretty full >-> I have a full X-Men collection since 1998 and somehow the manga series I like are loooong (Yami no Matsuei, Angel Sanctuary, Rebirth (ok, manhwa), Silver Diamond <3) and the back wall on one side with cosmetics and a magnetic wall with all my posters.  It also stores my most favorite collection item: A Gambit drawing by Gabrielle Dell'otto! <3 I met him on the Comic Action somewhen in the beginnings of the 2000's. You used to draw for a ticket if you wanted to get a drawing, signing were free.  I didn't have a ticket but I asked nicely and he was SO RELIEVED almost happy to draw Gambit because most people had asked him for Spider-Mans, Beasts and Wolverines all over and over and over.... as an artist I can understand how boring that becomes after a while. I loooooooove it! <3 He is a grand master of shading and shapes and I can only hope to one time become as great an artist as he is. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 20th, 2012
8:22 pm	Dear males. I am sorry. I am so sorry to have been sitting there, in the back, nipping at some cocktail and waiting for one of you to speak to me. This approaching-thing is SO HARD. My nerves are at edge. And you have to suffer through it so much more because society expects it. *BIG HUGS FOR ALL OF YOU* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 12th, 2011
1:20 pm	Jup. Suits. But what has it to do with Majoram? Your Soul's Spice is Marjoram You have a strong love for life, other people, and yourself. You see the beauty in everyone. You want to be a positive force in other people's lives. You aim to do good in this world. You are inspired by your love for the world. You have dreams of transforming the planet. You are charismatic and driven. You have deep convictions that fuel you. What Spice Is Your Soul? Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 28th, 2010
12:02 am	You know it is bad when your best friend can't even remember that you already graduated although you did just one semester later than she. You know it is bad when your best friend starts telephoning in the middle of your meeting for hours straight, repeatedly. You know it is bad when she, who never left her hometown, promises to meet you when you offer her a bed place and she travels through your town anyway, and then she doesn't feel like it. You know it is bed when she says she will be there for your ritual rpg round, but may be late and call if she will. And then she forgets you and leaves you sitting around there, alone, for hours. But you know what is worse? That you have no one to talk to about it, no one who feels with you the pain of losing, no one to cry your heart out to and who is just there and spends you some mild comfort. Because in such a case, she would have been the person you would have talked to... Current Mood: disappointed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 13th, 2010
3:57 pm	Book Meme Instructions 1. Grab the nearest book. 2. Open the book to the page 123. 3. Find the fifth sentence. 4. Post the text of the next 4-7 sentences to LJ along with these instructions. 5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest (unless it's too troublesome to reach and is really heavy. Then go back to step 1). 6. Tag five people. deutsch: ( Read more... ) English: ( Read more... ) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 29th, 2010
7:37 pm	Another meme Friend Meme RULES 1. If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet or long and detailed, all is good. 2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own 01) Are you currently in a serious relationship? 02) What was your dream growing up? 03) What talent do you wish you had? 04) If I bought you a drink what would it be? 05) Favorite vegetable? 06) What was the last book you read? 07) What zodiac sign are you? 08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. 09) Worst Habit? 10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 11) What is your favorite sport? 12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude? 13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? 15) Tell me one weird fact about you. 16) Do you have any pets? 17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? 18) What was your first impression of me? 19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? 21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? 22) What color eyes do you have? 23) Ever been arrested? 24) Bottle or can soda? 25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? 26) What's your favorite place to hang out at? 27) Do you believe in ghosts? 28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? 29) Do you swear a lot? 30) Biggest pet peeve? 31) In one word, how would you describe yourself? 32) Do you believe/appreciate romance? 33) Favourite and least favourite food? 34) Do you believe in God? 35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? 36) Favourite band(s) of ALL time: (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 18th, 2010
6:29 pm	Fun with buddhist cosmology and idiot japanese scholars I'm currently studying the book "Buddhist Cosmology. Philosophy and Origins" by Akira Sadakata in translation by Gaynor Sekimori. Published by Kôsei Publishing, Tokyo in 1997. The English version is also from 1997, my copy stems from 2004. The book is hilarious. Not because of the sometimes strange Buddhist cosmology - I'm acquainted with that because I have already written some works about Realms of Punishment in Hindu- and Buddhist lore. Yet this book? I'm torn between laughing, crying and throwing a fit. I would say it is eurocentristic, but it's written by a Japanese scholar so that one scholar is probably just as bonkers as a cat on catnip. Because I don't want to be alone with these atrocities that came to my eyes, I want to share a "best of". Before that let me say that the book in itself is not an abomination, the buddhist content is quite fitting, yet the style of writing makes me want to claw my eyes out. Many sources are used and indicated, there are many very beautiful and detailed diagrams that only a maths-fetishist can create in this glory. It is also a good comprehension of the cosmology both of early Buddhism and the Mahayana. But these are things that make me go crazy: * Elements: We begin with the structure of the world by separating it into elements. Sadakata evaluates the five (!) Buddhist elements in detail, which is fine, but compares them to the Greek study of elements. He is seriously saying that the Buddhist, who have a fifth element "ahkahsha"(space), grabbed the school of elements from the Greek but were too dumb to make it right, quote p.25: "... we can conjecture that they copied Greek philosophy but erred in interpretation". WHAT? Way to be condescending. First: This elements in Buddhism were developed long before there was Buddhist iconography, which really may be influenced by Greece, when shall these geek have arrived there to spread their school of elements?! Besides, how about thinking of the school of elements of, I don't now, China maybe, which is THE COUNTRY RIGHT BESIDES INDIA?! And already contains five elements?! * Geography in MY cosmology? ... it's more likely than you think! Next there are some explanations of early Indian and Buddhist thoughts how the world and the continents could look like. Keep in mind that these are thoughts of 800-1200 YEARS AGO. Now enjoy this tasty piece of condescending, mis-aimed superiority-complex: p. 36: "The ancient Indians placed the four landmasses to the north, south, east and west, and though that their positions were unalterable for as long as the present kalpa lasted (a kalpa is an incalculably long period of time). Our knowledge of continental drift, however, tells us that this is not possible." Those silly ancient Indians! How dare they not knowing what we haven't known for 200 years more than 1000 years ago?! "We know, through examining the directional flow of terrestrial magnetism and the distribution of geological forms, which allows us theoretically to fit continents together, that the Indian subcontinent was once located near the South Pole, connected with Antarctica, Africa and Australia." Yes, of course "we" know this for 1000 years or something... oh! Wait! We also just -recently- (in Earth Time) found out about that and our own cosmologies were no less silly! Especially you, Mr. Sadakata, who come from a country that was closed up from foreign development for several centuries, should know that *serious face*. The following three pages educate us about the geological means of travelling continental plates. Great. It's 8th grade Geography all over again! "Mr. Teacher I know something! I know something! Pay attention to me!" I absolutely needed that in my book about Buddhist cosmology. * Oh those silly Indians! (again) Page 38 shows another piece of Mr. Sadakatas chronologically-challenged status: After an description how the old Indians imagined the nature and movement of the sun and the moon, were the weaker light of the moon is explained with it being an embodiment of water, Sadakata adds: "Thus the sun shines brightly and is hot, whereas the moon gleams coldly. (The ancient Indians do not seem to have considered that the moon reflects the light of the sun.)" No, WHAT? REALLY? Are you telling me, Mr. Sadakata, AGAIN that the people 1000 years ago didn't know about things we "educated" people haven't known about for 500-200 years? A-fucking-MAZING, Sherlock! * Thou arrogance is not enough! Right on the next page, 39, we enter the question why the days over a year are of different length. The old Indians explained that this is through the sun pendling between north and south of all four world continents, which isn't that far from reality. I guarantee the following quote is not altered besides the bold print: "The Abhidharmakosha says, 'When the sun moves to the southern part of Jambudvipa [...], the nights grow longer, and when it moves north [...], the days grow longer.' This analysis is faulty. It is true that the sun continuously moves between north and south. This movement, however, does not explain the changes in the lengths of day and night; for this, knowledge of the earth's roundness is indispensable. Jambudvipa, however, is on a plane surface." OH MY GOD! The Indians thought the world was flat! Horrible, I say, horrible! How could they? And that were it only took 4000 years from the first Greek mathematician thinking about the world being round until it became a matter of fact! And may I remind you, dear Mr. Sadakata, that the Chinese and Japanese cosmology also thought the world was a SQUARE until the western scholars invading their countries told something different? *Snippet The following is not the fault of the author, I just include it because it is so sad it's hilarious. Referring to page 50ff. the seems to be a very special kind of hell for pedophiles (yay!) in classic India (6th century) as read in the Sutra of Stability in Contemplation of the True Dharma (Saddharma-smrity-upastha(h)nasutra), it's depiction in the Japanese script "Essentials of Salvation" (Ojô Yoshu) by the priest Genshin (942-1017) it is depicted that "Those who have taken hold of the children of others and done evil things to them, causing them to weep and cry, fall into this hell and receive its agonies" However the first "torture" means that they see their children being tortured by having put hot iron rots into their genitals (wait... what? the children (even if illusions) are tortured for the sins of their parent?) and only after that hot liquid copper is put into the anus of the sinner. Thinking of the legends with Kappa-Yokai... I call fixation ;) Calmed down a bit? Great, so I hope you won't have a heart attack like I had reading the following. * CHALK IS MADE OF SKULLS! After several pages about the formation and structure of different kinds of hells, we come back to the etymology of hell-names we had before. Three of the eight "cold hells" are called Utpala (blue lotus), Padma (red lotus) and Mahapadma (crimson lotus). It is said in some sources that the names refer to the colors of the hells. Now grab your seats, Mr. Sadakata writes the following: "It is hard to understand how this description could cause terror, through perhaps the ancient Indians had some kind of psychological fear of these colors".. ... ... ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! Of course the Indians had a deep rooted psychological fear of red and blue! Every time they saw a red flower they SCREAMED IN HORROR and of course we all know that the old Indians lived like moles under the earth because looking at the blue sky made them SHRIVER IN FEAR. This is also the reason why red is the most positive color in the Indian culture! Don't you see? You equal the most horrifying, hell-like thing you know with love, wealth and marriage! WTF. This is especially great because on page 53 follows another explanation he deems better: "[a scripture of Pu-Kuang] includes a more satisfying explanation. 'The hell called Utpala is so named because the skin of an evildoer splits open because of the dreadful cold, and the body resembles a blue lotus. The hell called Padma is sonamed because here the skin splits and resembles a red lotus. The hell called Mahapadma is so named because here the skin splits and resembles the crimson lotus'". Uhm, yeah, of course giving the same explanation for three different colors makes totally more sense. *I'm so creeped out! The whole description ends with Sadakatas words: "It is hard to say whether the image of bodies that are like blue, red and crimson lotus flowers vying to bloom on the surface of a dark pond is horrifying or beautiful." If it is... what are you... omg... *speechles, takes a step back* Mr. Sadakata, you seem like a deeply disturbed person and I hope I will never meet you because I'm scared to my bones. If you really can't decide if split bodies are more horrifying than beautiful, maybe you should get some help. God. If I find more pieces of rage, I will quote them here. Current Mood: infuriated (Comment on this)
Monday, April 12th, 2010
1:03 pm	fic-post Hi For anyone interested, I've started a new fic for the Alice in Wonderland 2010 fandom. You can find it here: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5850952/1/Seeing_you_again Rating: T(+?) Tags: Adventure, Romance (hinted at for now, more later) Summary: When Alice returns from China, her sister seems to plan something and she is in for a surprising visit resulting in the questioning of reason and reality. When people change in body instead in mind, she realizes a new enemy lurks in the shadows Warnings: Nothing special until now, however later chapters may contain violence - there will be fights, duh. Also, magic. So, nothing new for AiW-fans. I'm very happy about every kind of response - just tell me what you think about the plot, the characters, how good/awful my English or writing style as a whole is... Every kind of review is welcome, especially concrit. I like to enhance myself, this is only possible if people tell me where I'm wrong or where I could do something better/ in a better way. The plot synopsis follows under the cut: ( Read more... ) (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 6th, 2010
3:54 pm	Receipt: Duck in tangerine sauce Auf Wunsch eines einzelnen Herrn, der mir sehr am Herzen liegt, poste ich dieses "Meisterwerk", denn es ist definitiv die beste Soße, die ich bisher gekocht habe :) Answering the wish of a certain friend who I like very much, this post contains the receipt for my "masterpiece" because it is definitely the best sauce I've ever made :) ( German ) ( English ) (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 2nd, 2010
7:02 pm	Oh ye jolly chinese people... Sometimes, it is really hard to like my study. Translations can be very boring and exhausting, especially if the author uses corrupt chinese sources which make even in the grammar-lacking chinese language zero sense. It can also be depressing if you have to read about all the worries and atrocieties Shaanxi people had to live through in the Ming Dynasty. After decades of no rain, famines and eating each other (alone in the 9 old sources I had that was mentioned 58 times!) I wonder how there were even any people left in that area. However sometimes I love my job, it is when I stumble about things that are just more than funny for us old westerners (and most modern chinese, I guess). Have your cake: "Magic was used in the rebell attacks on Luzhou, Zhuzhou and Kaifeng 1642. In all three attacks nude women were involves, in two cases alive, in the case of Zhuzhou dead ones. They were collected and placed at the front to accumulate that much Yin principle in front of the city walls, that the fireweapons of the city would stop to work. " ... "In fact, the canons of Zhuzhou lacked function and those of Kaifeng fired at their own troops. But then they choose to try magic counter measures: In Zhuzhou, nude soil was poured over the walls to break the power of the nude women, in Kaifeng they placed naked buddhist monks on top of the city walls." So their own troops were like "Ohh.... naked breast~~~~<3" and then they were like: "Oh my gods... are those naked.... OH NO THESE ARE NAKEDMONKSTAKETHEMAWAYTAKETHEMAWAY!" Thank you for the lulz, citizens of ancient Kaifeng. Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 10th, 2009
3:47 pm	meme My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul saciel goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a gay fallen angel. ankokumen gives you 18 light blue raspberry-flavoured pieces of taffy. bemysty tricks you! You get a broken balloon. machi_sama gives you 8 yellow lime-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. severn gives you 10 white root beer-flavoured gummy worms. straycat_cayra gives you 15 light green grape-flavoured nuggets. wierdbot gives you 10 light orange peach-flavoured pieces of taffy. saciel ends up with 61 pieces of candy, and a broken balloon. Go trick-or-treating! Username: Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 2nd, 2009
3:46 pm	In Memorum. Heute ist ein trauriger Tag. Ich habe eben erfahren, dass ein Mensch gestorben ist, den ich sehr mochte. Es ist schon eine Woche her, doch die Nachricht war so versteckt, dass ich sie nicht gesehen habe. So ist das mit den Internetbekanntschaften - man lernt viele kennen und viele spricht man nie wieder. Manche intensive Bekanntschaften enden einfach plötzlich und man spricht sich für Jahre nicht oder gar nicht mehr. Was passiert mit diesen Menschen? An manche denkt man wenig, über andere macht man sich Gedanken - Internetabsturz? Finanzielle Probleme? Rausgeworfen? Unfall? Was passiert mit den Menschen, die einfach so ausloggen und nie wieder ein? Wir, als Internetbenutzer, haben keine Chance etwas über ihr Schicksal zu erfahren, es bleibt nur der unangenehme Nachgeschmack: Was ist wohl passiert? Tatsächlich war Knightfall früher immer sehr oft online, dann weniger und ich hatte ihn jetzt schon lange Zeit nicht mehr gesehen. Nun ist er verstorben 27 Jahren. Er litt an einer Art von Muskelschwund und hatte mir einst mitgeteilt, dass sein Arzt ihn schon mit 16 abgeschrieben hatte. In Sofern hatte er schon damals über die Medizin gesiegt. Viele kamen nicht mit ihm klar, manche in unserem Forum verstanden ihn nicht, manchmal hatte er Probleme sich anderen Menschen mitzuteilen. Das ist sehr schade, denn sie hatten nie die Gelegenheit diesen besonderen Menschen kennenzulernen. Er mochte manchmal anecken, doch er hinterließ immer einen ganz individuellen Eindruck. Ich erinnere mich gut an ein RPG das wir zeitweise zusammen meisterten. Für Außenstehende war das nicht erkennbar, doch er war es, der sich die Plots ausdachte und immer wieder neue, persönlich auf die Spieler abgestimmte Quests zuschnitt. Das hat mir sehr an ihm gefallen. Er sah immer das große Ganze vor sich, das Ziel, wohin er führen wollte, auch wenn der Weg nicht festgelegt war. Das ist eine Fähigkeit die mir immer fehlte und dafür bewundere ich ihn, half ihm bessere Worte zu finden, damit seine Ideen mehr Publikum fanden. Er war immer sehr interessiert, technikbegeistert und hatte zuletzt begonnen Philosophie zu studieren. Ich hoffe, er hat in der Zeit, die ihm verblieben ist, all das gelernt was er wissen wollte und noch Spaß am Leben gehabt, trotz der schweren Krankheit. Rest in Peace, ich werde dich vermissen ;_; Current Mood: sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
12:52 pm	Fanfiction: The Voice of two Hearts| Seimaden So I found this old translation, I knew I had it somewhere but I had forgotten to put it on my new harddrive. I wrote that fic back in 2002, worked it over 2005. Damn, that's a long time. It is an old translation, I have to work it over as soon as I find the time, but probably I will translate The Bookkeeper's Devil first, because I like it better. This fic belongs to the fandom of Seimaden, probably many english speakers won't know it because I havn't seen it published overseas, anywhere. Therefore I only have the german source and some names and speak patterns may be different, although I prefer the original writing for Teteiyusu instead of Titius. The reason for this is, that in the german version the name is shortened to "Titi" and that's slang for tits. Those without wings. So, the english in there may contain several punctuation mistakes because I wasn't good at this that time. I hope it is a good read in all other belongs. I'm always happy for concrit & lingucrit! ( Read more... ) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 10th, 2009
6:51 pm	Meme I've got this from Machi, she wants to fill it out too. However, I would be happy to get some more responses :) 1. Your Middle Name: 2. Age: 3. Single or Taken: 4. Favourite Film: 5. Favourite Song or Album: 6. Favourite Band/Artist: 7. Dirty or Clean: 8. Tattoos and/or Piercings: 9. Do we know each other outside of LJ? 10. What's your philosophy on life? 11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty? 12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest? 13. What is your favourite memory of us? 14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure? 15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: 16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they? 17. Can we get together and make a cake? 18. Which country is your spiritual home? 19. What is your big weakness? 20. Do you think I'm a good person? 21. What was your best/favourite subject at school? 22. Describe your accent: 23. If you could change anything about me, would you? 24. What do you wear to sleep? 25. Trousers or skirts? 26. Cigarettes or alcohol? 27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!) 28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 8th, 2009
4:19 pm	Meme #463 Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given. Got it from machi_sama 1. X-Man. Yeah. Uhm. I don't know much about him other that he's dead now and his alternation Cable still runs around with a possible infant Jean Grey. See, I prefer reading something about the X-Men. Whole different series. Yes, I'm nitpicky. I like that series very much or better said... I liked it. Because it was fascinating, had interesting characters and they were like a family. It was great. But that changed a long time ago, now it's a soap opera and everyone bitches at each other, it's just depressing. My favourites wander off to the avengers, there are less characters I like but those at least are trustworthy- everyone bitches at each other but at least there is some humor thrown in and enough dynamic that I don't always ask myself why the heck they are staying together. *rambles on and on* 2. Religion und Kulte (und talismane etc.) Religions and cults... uhm yeah. It's what I do. I love that stuff, I really love it. That's why study it, will get my doctors degree there and make my profession on it. When I have studied all religions I will found the perfect religion on an Island I buy from collections. then I conquer the world.. It is so interesting to see how similar ideas were perceived all over the world and what the people have made of them. Also it makes many modern problems more understandable. But it is also frustrating to see what people do to their religions only because they aren't able to think and read for themselves (I'm talking of YOU, Christianity, Islam!) 3. yaoi/slash still interested in. But not as much as years ago. I read less fanfictions because I have either no time or don't find stuff I like. And I have no time to write things myself, I have tons of incomplete stories... I'm still reading yaoi manga, although I only by them every quarter year. I don't have time to go to the comic shop. 4. die digitale biliothek - (digital library)wouldn't know what to do without. It is very, very handy although some things are overaged. At the moment I own around 4,5 million digital pages. It makes research much easier. 5. schwule Kerle -gay guys. It's a hate-love relationship. I like to read gay literature and squee on gay pairings in the movies. It's possibly the same effect as lesbians are to straight men. However I know my place, I would never squee on real life gay guys because that is disrespectful. I don't see the point in stalking gay guys just for their orientation or because they are pretty. Gay guys are not my real life erotica but some yaoi girls think that (especially in Düsseldorf) and that's when I start on projected embarrassment... maybe that's the reason because I make friends with them easier. I usually have good gay-dar, however it has a terrible dysfunction: 5 of 7 guys I was ever romantically interested in are gay. And it usually takes weeks and months for me to get it. I must be cursed, I can't explain it another way. It is just not normal on a theoretical demographic of 10% gay men in Germany that I hit on _every_single_one_of_them before finding an interesting straight guy. Take that curse from me! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
10:59 pm	Sylvester 2008 Warum hat das Jahresende so etwas depressives an sich? Ich kann mir keinen traurigeren Ort vorstellen, als den an dem ich jetzt bin: Zuhause. Nicht weil keine Party ist, jeder der mich kennt weiß, dass ich mit Parties nicht viel Anfangen kann. Ich trinken 2-3 harte Sachen bis mein Limit erreicht ist, die Musik ist für gewöhnlich nicht mein Geschmack, zum Quatschen isses zu laut, und ich stehe solange hilflos rum bis ich endlich die Pflichtzeit erfüllt habe und gehen darf. Das ist ja auch kein Problem, denn zuhause erwarten mich viele lustigere Dinge die ich tun könnte. Nur heute nicht. Wie jedes Jahr. Ich sitze hier in meiner Ecke, es ist ziemlich dunkel, denn meine Wandleuchten funktionieren nicht. Das stimmt nicht ganz- eine von den drei Leuchten funktioniert nicht und bestrahlt den Drucker in der hintersten Ecke meines Kabuffs. Und die Wand. Toll. Das ist schon seit drei Tagen so, der technische Manager (i.e. mein Vater) kümmert sich trotz wiederholten bettelns und dackelblickens nicht darum. Verzweifelt suchte ich den Großteils des Tages mit Schlaf zu verbringen, doch dank erheblicher Schlafstörungen funktioniert dies leider nicht. Ich habe noch einen großen Teil des Tages damit verbracht Dattelbällchen zu backen, die zwar laut allgemeiner Umfrage sehr lecker sind aber doch, wie ich das kenne, ungegessen bleiben werden. Das Abendessen ist vorbei- es gab Würstchen und Kartoffelsalat. Jippie. Mein Lieblingsessen. Nicht. Und kalt. Es ist ist arschkalt und ich muss mich noch rechtfertigen den Kamin anzumachen (mittlerweile habe ich die Kunst gemeistert aus fast erloschener Asche mittels getränkter Spanplatten ein neues Feuerchen zu zaubern). Leider frieren mir hier trotzdem die Füße ab, da meine Ecke die einzige ist, an der die Wärme vorbeifließt. Ich sterbe vor Langeweile. Es ist einfach niemand DA. Die Leute sind Feiern, auf Reisen bei Verwandten, tun etwas lustiges wie zum Beispiel manisch putzen, oder irgendetwas mit ihrer Familie. Meine Familie tut nichts. Es war einigermaßen anstrengend sich durch den mir bereits bekannten The Dark Knight zu kämpfen, seitdem ist Totenruhe angesagt. Seit 22 Uhr böllern die Deppen im Dorf schon herum, hier herrscht morbides Schweigen. Das heißt nicht, dass es ruhig ist. In der Flucht vor Dinner for One plärrt Ekel Alfred in der Endlosschleife. (Bitte stellt euch bei diesem Satz Jürgen von der Lippes Tonfall und vorwurfsvolle Augen vor.) Mein Vater sitzt am PC und schaut sich Autos an, die er nicht kaufen wird. Meine Mutter hängt unterm Kopfhörer und schaut einen ihrer unzähligen Bollywoodfilme. Meine Freunde sind wie gesagt: Nicht da. Oder beschäftigt. Längere Konversationen sind heutzutage halt Mangelware. Ich habe versucht mich mit den üblichen Spielen abzugeben, Perfect World ist momentan mein Liebling. Allerdings haben die andern Gamer auch kein Leben und darum läufts sehr, sehr langsam. Zudem kann ich weder Monster slashen noch Quests bearbeiten denn die unendliche X-Mas Aktion hat mir mit ihren untradebaren Sammelkarten das Inventory verstopft. Und den Safe. Und eigentlich alles. Auch der Alternativ Schwertkämpfer raubt mir wegen der Langsamkeit den letzten Nerv. Also zurück zu Shaiya. Ich erkenne erst jetzt im Kontrast wie schlecht das Spiel im Vergleich zu PW ist. Zudem wurde an der Grafik rumprogrammiert, sie gefällt mir jetzt kaum noch. Und jeder Besuch erinnert mich an den bitteren Verrat meiner Gilde, dieses feige und grundlose Ausstoßen, das den Beschluss kräftigte mich künftig allein durch MMORPGs zu schlagen. Also auch nichts. Batman Beyond hab ich schon gesehen. Wolverine and the X-Men geht nicht weiter wegen etwaiger Rechte Fuckery in Kanada- die Serie wird erst im Januar wieder gesendet und zwar in Wiederholung. Neue Folgen gibt es erst wieder im März. Ich habe keine DVDs, die jetzt anschauenswert wären. Zumindest nicht allein. Meine Eltern wollen ja nicht. Und um Viertel nach Elf habe ich ehrlichgesagt auch keine Lust mehr über den Dionsysuskult zu recherchieren oder chinesische Vokabeln zu lernen. Nicht, dass ich es bei Schlafentzug und Muskelkater könnte. Ich langweile mich zu Tode. Ist ja nicht das erste Mal so. Habe ich schon erwähnt wie sehr ich Sylvester hasse? Wofür brauchen wir das eigentlich? Wir feiern doch auch nicht jeden neuen Tag oder jeden neuen Monat. Die Zeit geht schnell genug vorüber um so älter wir werden, oder nicht? Wie Caya Yanar sagte: FLOOMP! Kinder zählen die Jahre doch eh in ihren Geburtstagen. Können wir Sylvester nicht einfach abschaffen? Gründe zum Saufen werden die entsprechenden Personen auch so genug finden. Current Mood: discontent (Comment on this)
Monday, December 1st, 2008
9:02 pm	Meme Wenn du dies hier ließt, wenn deine Augen genau jetzt diese Zeilen überfliegen, selbst wenn wir nicht oft miteinander reden- poste bitte einen Kommentar mit einer Erinnerung von dir und mir. Es kann sein was du möchtest- egal ob schlecht oder schön. Wenn du fertig bist, poste dies hier in deinem Blog und lass dich überraschen woran sich die Leute erinnern. (2 Comments |Comment on this)